What has been going on

So here is my story I have to tell back when I was living in Portland then boyfriend Tom I was diagnosed with an illness I still struggle with now and I had a nervious break down  .Tom couldn't handle it and we broke up .We where going to get married it real hurt that he couldn't stand by me .I then moved back to Jackson Hole Wy and worked there dateing and doing okay until I had a nother nervious brake down and tried to kill myself.So after I got out of the hosptail I moved to Naples fl where my family livede.I work two jobs and go to school online to finish my degree and now and am moving to Savannah Ga my illness is worse .I was as planning on a trip to Savannah for Valentines day because I wanted to look at house( I found one anyways) and see friends.I also wanted to spend time with this guy I have feelings for,but it all feel through because he had to work late the day of my arrival so he told me the night before I was going to leave.Then he text messaged me the next day and told me he would be working late the next night too.Now he doesn't know that my illness is worse I don't know that he cares we hardly talk these days ,he and my friends are acting strange twords me it is a bit stressfull and heart breaking.There is one person that is not acting wreid twords me she is always nice to me and that means a lot to me .I wish everyone else would come around I could use the support.This sounds like no one gives a fuck about me when I know they do.

Voices in my head

So I am looking for apartments in Savannah for my big move in May it has been a trial for sure.There are these voices in my head that say it is about time to move on with my life now that I lost everything in these past months .I just don't want to be a lone when I get to Savannah moving away from my family is hard enough.Change is good for the soul and is a part of life and i embrace this with open arms.I just hope my friends in Savannah and I stay close and see each other ,for it would sadden me if I lost anyone more.After loosing my father and stepfather every relationship,friendship is that more precious to me .

Iron man Returns

So this whole story starts about 9 years ago while living in Portland OR with my now ex boyfriend Tom.I was  working at a hotel as front desk clerk and a night auditor 3 times a week.I made a decision to switch jobs for the better paying job as an night auditor/personal concierge .I was going in to the other hotel the next morning for my interview ,after working all night at my present job.After 3 red bulls and no sleep working all I had in my head was Iron man and all through my interview I had Iron man stuck in my head .Well just the other day I had Dead or Alive stuck in my head it was quite annoying ,now today Iron man has returned to haunt me I have had zero sleep because of it hope it goes away soon or at least some other song could come into my head.I hope it isn't a Brittney Spears song LOL.